The Dreams That Should Never End

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I came out of temple after taking blessings
A girl in a queue gazed and smiled at me
I passed without giving it a thought
After a moment, it stuck in my mind

I don’t know why she looks at me in that way
It is like we have relation for years
It is like we know each other before our eyes meet
Eyes didn’t just meet, she was staring at me
Though I don’t know why, but I could see in her eyes

The look was genuine, not mean
It felt a strong connection
I saw her for the first time, but she
Looked at me like I was someone close to her

I saw that look on woman who found someone
A soulmate or a charming prince
No, I am jumping to weird conclusions
It’s not that simple, isn’t it?

Her gaze made me nervous and curious
Why would someone look at me like this?
I am not a celebrity whom girls fantasize to meet
And go crazy the moment their eyes meet

Her smile and gaze was confident and real
I was not looking weird or joker that
She realized I am not aware of
And she looked at me out of innocence

No, she is not from school or college
Yes, the gaze was not when a stranger sees a stranger
She knows me, but I don’t remember her
I have to meet her, but she is inside and I need to wait

I waited and waited contemplating about possibilities
Reminiscing past event trying to find connections
My mind loaded with anxiety as I couldn’t find any
And I saw her coming out with her family and relatives

She didn’t see me, she just passed by
I can’t approach her while she is with them
So I followed them and found where she lives
I have to wait for her to come out alone

You know your soulmate when you see him
You don’t have to do anything, but smile
If it is about that, then why she is not trying
To find me as I am trying to find a moment

Seven days passed and I couldn’t find her alone
I again recollected that incident when she looked at me
I put a pressure on my mind to know
Whether she was joking with her family or not

And she didn’t catch my gaze accidentally while smiling
Even if this happened, my heart wasn’t ready to accept it
It was so unreasonable; it was telling me again and again
That there is something beyond a reason or logic

On the 8th day, I found her walking alone
I need to approach her and clarify everything
I jumped into her way and she startled
For a moment, she was blank and I was confused

Didn’t she recognize me or what?
I was thinking about the bond of many births
I should go, but I muttered ‘hi’ somehow
And she gave me a blank expression

I was sure that she didn’t recognize me
Or she is acting like she didn’t know me
I muttered ‘sorry’ with a guilt to stop her all sudden
My face was full of remorse

And I turned around to leave as soon as I can
To avoid embarrassment due to my stupidity
How stupid I was to jump on those conclusions
It was an accidental gaze and nothing at all

And something happened that made her smile
And she turned around and accidentally caught my gaze
Going to temple made me believe in concepts like
Soulmate, or no coincidence, everything is planned

I thought I Wasted seven days waiting for nothing
I should come back to reality from dream world
Be practical and realistic, that makes sense
As I turned around a voice came from back

It was she who said, no need to be embarrassed
It was me who should be, not you
I was perplexed, but she was assertive
She meant what she said to me

There was an awkward silence in which
I was solving the mystery of that look
And everything unraveled in a way I wanted
There was something for sure, but I still don’t know

What it was exactly and I was there to know
Now, the relief and satisfaction was in my smile
I gazed her in a way she gazed at me that time
The moment I was about to say something

She said I don’t know why I smiled
And looked at you in a way I did
When I saw you, I thought we have connection
I know you for years or births, I don’t know

But that feeling was magical,
I couldn’t help myself and those feelings
I couldn’t hide, and I didn’t want to
I didn’t know what was that?

Which attracted me towards you?
Made me give you that look with smile
I was avoiding it considering it was nothing
But I can’t escape from heart

The heart wants what it wants
It told me that it means something
I noticed you are here waiting for me
From last seven days with a hope

And I made you do this and wasted your time
But I realized I can’t run away from the truth
I was nodding with a big ‘no’ expression on my face
She didn’t waste my time

I enjoyed every bit of it no doubt
Why couldn’t I, if it meant what I was listening now
I would have waited for years to hear this
She stopped and I could see a look on her

A look waiting for a reply from me
I admitted that I was having the same feelings
There is something between us which is
Still a mystery and there is no name for it

And I don’t know when it will unfold
Till we can only try to figure out
She said there are some mysteries not meant to unfold
They have to be accepted as it is

No one can find a reason or logic
Some encounters are not meant for coincidences
They are meant for something valuable
Something precious and they are once in a lifetime

Running away from those will only result in regrets
I will tell you what it meant really
I felt like I found my soulmate and so
The look and smile with satisfaction

Came spontaneously from core of my soul
That wasn’t a mere expression of feelings
That was a signal from my soul

I was overwhelmed with her words
Thought that she is so brave to accept it
And candid that she admitted it to me
She is a brave girl

Before I say anything, she interrupted
It is fine that you don’t feel the same way
Absolutely fine if you do not believe
In a concept of soulmate or no coincidences

But I do and you can tell me what you think
I can wait as long as you want
Take your time and tell me what you believe
I am strong enough to accept the truth

She was on the verge of leaving
But I didn’t want her to go
A voice inside my head was telling me
Stop her; I want to stay with you forever

I raised my hand up in an attempt to stop her
Someone held my hand and asked
Where are you, what’s going on?
For a moment, I didn’t realize what’s happening

It was my bro and I was in my bed
I was dreaming and this was the dream
I never wanted to end and the crazy fact,
The end of beautiful dreams is so traumatic


(Image courtesy of Ambro at FreeDigitalPhotos.net)

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