I never wanted to be aloof,
No one wants to,
But I had to choose to be,
To isolate myself.
I had to choose that way,
Because I didn’t want to be,
In a company of people,
Who did not believe in me.
I knew, it included the people,
Who were close to me,
Family and friends,
I couldn’t believe, they were pulling me down.
I wanted to surround myself,
With people who will uplift me,
Who will believe in me,
When I lose all the hope.
But that’s just a fairytale for me,
I thought I’ll make myself so strong,
I won’t need anyone else to lift myself up,
But it was impossible.
So here I am, sitting alone in the room,
Trying to shed a tear at my misery.
But I can’t, I just can’t,
I don’t know what happened to me.
I can’t feel anything,
The loneliness swallowed me,
And drowned me into darkness,
From where I could see no light.
I have drowned so deep,
It even seems futile,
To make an effort,
To find the light.
This darkness is a consequence,
Of the choice I made consciously,
And I am glad I made this choice,
I could see the different world.
I see different shades of it,
Some of those shades show original versions,
Some show strange realities,
And those are uglier than I thought.
The crazy fact,
What I never thought was,
The darkness had power to show,
Brutally honest versions of the world.
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