The World is Bitter for a Bride-To-Be

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It started three years ago. The search for groom. Searching online, telling relatives, meeting some of the guys, Kundali matching, question-answer sessions, and everything related to arrange marriage. When I showed green signal to get married, I was treated like a princess who is now a bride-to-be.

But it has been three years now. One thing that has not been changed is my marital status. I’m still unmarried. But there is one thing that has changed. The attitude of my parents toward me.

They have become so superstitious. Wear a ring with a shining aqua blue colored stone to get married soon, use some yellow colored powder while bathing, and keep a fast on Thursdays, and what not. Then consulting a marriage counselor, spending money unnecessarily on their already known & implemented tips, and many unnecessary ideas they ask to implement.

One of their ideas was a brand new photo shoot. My mother brought two new dresses, asked to wear both turn by turn, and took photos in every possible pose. While giving poses, they suggested nearly 100 postures and prompted every single change their mind can think of. Then they checked out their clicks and were unsatisfied. So, they took me to a professional photographer. While going at the studio, I felt like I am a product in the market which will be cleaned, well-furnished, polished, and kept on the shelf in the most presentable way. During the photo shoot, I could see my eyes were heavy and teary. Like those eyeballs will pop out at any moment. Still, they suggested and prompted poses and postures. And photo shoot was carried out.

Everything has changed. My parents have become desperate and always hover over me to find a groom and get married. I don’t feel like staying at home because I feel miserable. I avoid talking to them and talk only when they ask me something. The world seems bitter now. Because, the precious princess has turned into a burdensome bride-to-be. Maybe the world is not bitter, but my parents are. And they are world to me, no matter how they treat me. So yes, the world is bitter. Bitter for a bride-to-be.

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उस नाजूकसी नजाकतने…

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उस नाजूकसी नजाकतने न जाने कितनो को घायल किया,
जैसे सवारी उन्होने जुल्फे अपनी, हमने खुदही को भुला दिया।
उनकी इक नजर मे, हमारे तो होश उड़ जाते थे,
पता नही उनके घर के आयने हररोज़ बिखर कर केसे जुड़ जाते थे ।

सवारना तो हम भी चाहते थे अपने दिल को,
समझाना तो हम भी चाहते थे अपने दिल को,
पर क्या करे, उन आँखों की मस्ती ने हमको रोक दिया,
इक झपक मे हीे, अपना दिल हमने उनके प्यार मे झोक दिया ।

जलन होती थी हमे उनसे, जिनके साथ वो हसती खेलती थी,
और हम तो उनकी इक नजर के लिए तरस जाते थे,
पर क्या करे, उन लोगों को उन लम्हो की कदर नही थी,
और हम उनके खयालो मे पूरी ज़िन्दगी जी जाते थे ।

उनकी जिंदादिली देख कर हम जमाने की बुजदिली भुल गए,
और उनसे हुई थोडीसी गुफ्तगू हमारी, हमारे तो किस्मत के दरवाजे खुल गए ।
उनकी इक मुस्कुराहट देख कर ही, हमारा मन भर जाता था,
क्योंकि कुछ देर के लिए ही सही, पर दिनमे चाँद जमींपर दस्तक लगाने आता था ।

बहुत शर्मीले है हम, उनके खयालो मे ही ख्वाब बुनते बेठे,
हमसे दिल का हाल बताने मे थोड़ी देर क्या हुई, वो किसी और को अपना दिल थमा बेठे।
उन्हें समजना चाहते थे हम, पर वो अपने ही दुनिया मे मस्त हो रहे थे,
और हम जो हमारा कभी ना था, वो ना मिलने के गम मे शिकवा कर रहे थे ।


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Just Be Here

She sat beside him and looked deeply into his eyes. Her eyes radiated an immense adoration for him.

‘What?’ said he as her gaze startled him.

‘Nothing,’ clarified she, endearingly.

‘Say it, nah!’

‘Nothing… Just be here.’

And she rested her head on his shoulder, held his hand, and closed her eyes.

The crazy fact is, someone’s mere presence is enough to fade away the feeling of loneliness.

You Were That Angel

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At that time, I was returning to my floor after dinner. I was checking my phone while climbing up stairs. And I accidentally collided to a girl. I apologized immediately. She accepted my apology gracefully. I glanced at her and noticed she was beautiful.

I gave her a compliment, ‘You are beautiful. Your eyes illuminate innocence.’

She said, ‘I said it’s fine, you don’t have to flatter me to convey it was a genuine mistake.’

‘No, I’m serious. An artist never lies.’

‘What do you do?’

‘I am a writer.’

‘So are you going to write a poem for me now?’

‘No.’

‘Why?’

‘Because I already have. I imagined an angel, wrote a poem on her beauty, and here you are… Yes, you were that angel I imagined.’


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The Earth Will Change Its Inclination

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Using my imagination,
Keeping aside others’ expectations,
With single-minded focus and dedication,
Considering all permutations,
And combinations,
Ignoring others’ rational recommendations,
With little preparation,
Ready with my ambitions,
Passionate about creation,
Invention, and innovation,
I strode toward my destination.

Prepared for every examination,
With a determination,
No more procrastination,
In an endeavor to become a sensation,
Taking a necessary action.
Who knew a wrong estimation,
A wrong calculation,
Would end up in destruction,
Changing life’s configuration,
Had to witness dreams’ explosion,
Which tore me into particles after detonation.

But something’s termination,
Is something else’s inception,
Mistakes are for education,
Only need rectification,
Learn from miscalculation,
Failure is just a conception,
A mere hallucination,
Has no signification,
If I get up without hesitation,
I have potential with no limitation,
Will use it for resurrection.

Yes, I suffered demoralization,
Despite all the opposition,
I wasn’t ready for capitulation,
Prepared for retaliation,
To the world’s fierce incursion,
This time, a smarter execution,
Enhancing my disposition,
And the crazy fact,
The earth will change its inclination,
Because those who gave me negative proposition,
One day, I will become their admiration.


 

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Who Is Hiding Honest Feelings Now?

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His fingers trembled, fear in eyes,
Sweat trembling down his forehead,
Chest throbbing, as he sputtered,
I LOVE YOU.
And handed over a letter,
Filled with his feelings.

He knew he was not that bold,
To express everything,
By looking straight into her eyes.
But he was determined,
To say what he felt for her,
To express articulately.

No matter what was going to happen,
He wanted to give her that letter,
And he did it.
He thought the adrenaline elevated,
At the highest level.
But he was wrong about it.

It was just a beginning,
He had to face the reaction,
Of a spunky girl, staring right back to him,
Confident, still, determined.
Her simple glance was enough,
For anyone to take their gaze away.

He was an ordinary guy,
Shy, stoic, reticent,
Who showed some guts on that day.
She opened the letter,
And closed it immediately.
Her eyes radiated her spunky nature.

He was still & glanced at her,
Thought she’s expecting an explanation,
But he sputtered,
What do you think?
In a low voice, so low,
That it didn’t even reach his own ears.

She was quiet, staring him earnestly,
He looked down out of nervousness,
And she began laughing uncontrollably,
His perplexed mind,
Reflected through his eyes,
As he looked at her.

Eventually, you did it.
You mad, what do you think?
You are quiet, hide your honest feelings,
So, I won’t know what’s inside,
Your eyes can’t hide anything,
I know what you’ve written in this letter.

I understand, it’s difficult for you,
To explain everything eloquently,
I understand, it’s easy for you,
To express yourself through writing,
I understand, what you want to say,
When your eyes express everything.

I know, when you get insecure,
When others compliment me and you couldn’t,
I know, when you are sad,
When you try to show everything is normal.
I know, when you are happy,
When your eyes are expressionless.

You are so good at,
Hiding your honest feelings,
Look up now,
What are you so shy about?
I told you everything,
How much you spoke through your eyes.

He blinked & looked into her eyes,
With utmost sincerity,
He said it again,
I LOVE YOU.
The sweetness in his voice,
Reflected his true feelings.

And it was the moment,
When she blushed & looked down.
He said mischievously,
I said it, eloquently.
Look up now,
What are you so shy about?

You mad, you shouldn’t ask this,
When you know the answer.
He said, I can’t read expressions in eyes,
Like you do, so just say it.
She said, you know it,
No, I don’t, he replied.

‘I hate you.’
‘No, you don’t.’
‘Yes, I do.’
The crazy fact,
It was her,
Who was hiding honest feelings.

She glanced at him,
Her eyes radiated adoration,
The time stopped for a moment,
Nothing else mattered at that moment,
And, finally, she showed her honest feelings,
I LOVE YOU.


 

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Do You Know How Hard It Is For Me?

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Do you know how hard it is for me?
To come up to you,
And start a conversation,
I tried it twice before,
And thought thousand times,
About how to make a first impression?

Do you know how hard it is for me?
Not to blush in front of you,
When you say hello,
With your beautiful smile,
And that swag,
So, I wouldn’t make you uncomfortable.

Do you know how hard it is for me?
To digest the fact,
And realize that,
You are special for me,
But for you,
I am just another guy.

Do you know how hard it is for me?
Not to smile quietly,
When I am alone,
Reminiscing your grace,
That I used to observe furtively,
So, others won’t think I’m mad.

And the crazy fact,
Do you know how hard it is for me?
To focus on what matters,
At the present moment,
Rather than roam endearingly,
In a fairytale,
Because I don’t even know whether it has a further chapter.


 

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The Destiny Does Not Spoon-Feed

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The elevator was taking too long to reach basement. I decided to take steps to reach my office on fourth floor. Climbing up two steps in a leap, I was thinking about where to start today’s work from. And I saw her as I reached the first floor. The thoughts about work disappeared as soon as thoughts about her beauty, her simplicity, and her genuine gaze awakened.

I saw her for the first time during interview rounds for the company I currently work for. At that time, I thought she was an employee. Her beauty diminished my nervousness though I was about to face CEO of the company in final interview round. I was determined to pass interview because I wanted to meet her. I passed the interview. But, I came to know that she applied for the same position. I got the job and she didn’t. Damn! I am not a sacrifice kind of guy who would have sacrificed a job for her. Nonetheless, I felt bad for her at that time.

I totally forgot about her till the time I noticed her on the floor while attending a call. It was a wrong number. I was gazing her by holding a phone on ear even after call ended. Suddenly I realized she was the one I saw during the interview round with CEO.
‘Yes, she was the one’, I affirmed myself.

I noticed a company’s name on belt of her I-card. The company was on same floor. I was delighted. Suddenly, my heart blossomed with an unexpected turn my life was taking.

‘Is she the one?’

The most stupid question I could ask myself. Being single for 23 years is not easy. The mind jumps to some crazy, strange conclusions without thinking much. Because, every time I see a couple laughing together, my heart aches. I imagine that one day I will be sharing the same moment. And this happens! I was happy that she got a job, but I was continuously pondering on something strange and irrational.

The fate. The destiny.

‘Are we meant to be together?’

‘This doesn’t mean anything!’

‘Or she is the one?’

‘Stop it! You are overthinking.’

‘Or is this an indication?’

On my way back to cubicle, every moment I told myself to be rational and consider it as a coincidence. But, I was rationalizing irrational thoughts, finding logic in illogical incidents, and finding sense in nonsense.

This day was the third time I saw her. I take elevator every day, but today was different. Is it the game of destiny to make us cross each other’s path? The first time I saw her, I thought she was an employee. Unknowingly, I was motivated to pass interview to see her more, to know her, and try to get close to her. A misinterpretation. The second time was about attending a wrong number. No sensible reason to cross paths. And third time was, changing my mind to take stairs. A different path from daily routine.

The events were suggesting that the destiny is making efforts to meet us. I couldn’t overlook these indications. Everything happens for a reason. I know it’s crazy, but my intuitions were making these calls. I may not be anyone for her. But, I know something was going on that was meant to be a huge part of my life, my journey. But it’s possible only if I make efforts to make it possible. The efforts have to supplement the call of destiny. The crazy fact is, the destiny doesn’t spoon-feed.

I was waiting on the floor on next day with a chocolate in my hand. I was prepared to interact with her. I knew she would come out of her office for no matter what reason at the time I would wait for her on floor. And I was right. She came out texting on her phone. She advanced towards the entrance of floor where I was waiting. I was about to say hello and I heard a familiar shout.

“Hey, wake up! Or I will miss the bus. Get up! You have to drop me. It’s already late,” my brother was screaming. I rubbed my eyes gently and realized this was a dream.

“I’m not coming,” I said in an exasperated voice, pulling blanket over my head.

“Ohkk, then I’ll take your bike and you go to office by bus,” he replied.

I had to wake up from that sweet dream.


 

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The Power Of Originality

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This story is about the man who needs no introduction. In terms of creativity, innovation or risk-taking, this man knows no boundaries. It is strange to know how this man can get fired from a newspaper company for lacking new ideas and imagination. Walt Disney is an artist who gave Micky Mouse to the world. He was struggling to make ends meet. But these great people do not let circumstances decided their fate. They persevere, they innovate, they struggle, they fail, and they get back up again and again, no matter how many times they have to, they will stand up. And this is what separates them from others.

After getting fired from newspaper, he established a small company with another cartoonist. As this company was struggling to run business, he joined Kansas City Film Ad Company. Later, he formed his own company, ran successfully; but fate had some different plans for him. This company went bankrupt as its profits were inadequate to cover the salaries of employees.

He did not give up after encountering multiple collapses. He set up his own studio in Hollywood, California. The first huge success came in 1927 with his creation – Oswald, The Lucky Rabbit. His share in the profit was 20%, but he was barely earning with this percentage of profit. He deserved raise in percentage of profit. But his producer poached the character as well as his crew by negotiating contracts terms with them.

The producer failed to think that money can get the best minds in business, but one thing that money cannot buy, is originality. Walt Disney created Micky Mouse, one of the most successful cartoon characters of all time in 1928. And then, he never looked back. He went on and on to create more cartoon characters like Goofy, Donald Duck, Snow White, Dumbo and the list goes on. Who would have imagined that someone, who went bankrupt 7 times in his lifetime, won more Academy Awards than anybody else till date? The number is 22 from 59 nominations.

This sets a great example in front of us. If we can create something original once, we can create something original twice, we can create it thrice, and we can create ‘original’ no matter how many times it pleases us. This is what Walt Disney did, so can we.

The crazy fact is, the power of originality can proficiently conquer all the attacks of fate.


Sources –

  1. 10 Inspirational & Successful People Who Did Not Let Failure Define Them
  2. Disney Characters – A timeline of character debuts
  3. 7 Things You May Not Know About Walt Disney

The Dreams That Should Never End

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I came out of temple after taking blessings
A girl in a queue gazed and smiled at me
I passed without giving it a thought
After a moment, it stuck in my mind

I don’t know why she looks at me in that way
It is like we have relation for years
It is like we know each other before our eyes meet
Eyes didn’t just meet, she was staring at me
Though I don’t know why, but I could see in her eyes

The look was genuine, not mean
It felt a strong connection
I saw her for the first time, but she
Looked at me like I was someone close to her

I saw that look on woman who found someone
A soulmate or a charming prince
No, I am jumping to weird conclusions
It’s not that simple, isn’t it?

Her gaze made me nervous and curious
Why would someone look at me like this?
I am not a celebrity whom girls fantasize to meet
And go crazy the moment their eyes meet

Her smile and gaze was confident and real
I was not looking weird or joker that
She realized I am not aware of
And she looked at me out of innocence

No, she is not from school or college
Yes, the gaze was not when a stranger sees a stranger
She knows me, but I don’t remember her
I have to meet her, but she is inside and I need to wait

I waited and waited contemplating about possibilities
Reminiscing past event trying to find connections
My mind loaded with anxiety as I couldn’t find any
And I saw her coming out with her family and relatives

She didn’t see me, she just passed by
I can’t approach her while she is with them
So I followed them and found where she lives
I have to wait for her to come out alone

You know your soulmate when you see him
You don’t have to do anything, but smile
If it is about that, then why she is not trying
To find me as I am trying to find a moment

Seven days passed and I couldn’t find her alone
I again recollected that incident when she looked at me
I put a pressure on my mind to know
Whether she was joking with her family or not

And she didn’t catch my gaze accidentally while smiling
Even if this happened, my heart wasn’t ready to accept it
It was so unreasonable; it was telling me again and again
That there is something beyond a reason or logic

On the 8th day, I found her walking alone
I need to approach her and clarify everything
I jumped into her way and she startled
For a moment, she was blank and I was confused

Didn’t she recognize me or what?
I was thinking about the bond of many births
I should go, but I muttered ‘hi’ somehow
And she gave me a blank expression

I was sure that she didn’t recognize me
Or she is acting like she didn’t know me
I muttered ‘sorry’ with a guilt to stop her all sudden
My face was full of remorse

And I turned around to leave as soon as I can
To avoid embarrassment due to my stupidity
How stupid I was to jump on those conclusions
It was an accidental gaze and nothing at all

And something happened that made her smile
And she turned around and accidentally caught my gaze
Going to temple made me believe in concepts like
Soulmate, or no coincidence, everything is planned

I thought I Wasted seven days waiting for nothing
I should come back to reality from dream world
Be practical and realistic, that makes sense
As I turned around a voice came from back

It was she who said, no need to be embarrassed
It was me who should be, not you
I was perplexed, but she was assertive
She meant what she said to me

There was an awkward silence in which
I was solving the mystery of that look
And everything unraveled in a way I wanted
There was something for sure, but I still don’t know

What it was exactly and I was there to know
Now, the relief and satisfaction was in my smile
I gazed her in a way she gazed at me that time
The moment I was about to say something

She said I don’t know why I smiled
And looked at you in a way I did
When I saw you, I thought we have connection
I know you for years or births, I don’t know

But that feeling was magical,
I couldn’t help myself and those feelings
I couldn’t hide, and I didn’t want to
I didn’t know what was that?

Which attracted me towards you?
Made me give you that look with smile
I was avoiding it considering it was nothing
But I can’t escape from heart

The heart wants what it wants
It told me that it means something
I noticed you are here waiting for me
From last seven days with a hope

And I made you do this and wasted your time
But I realized I can’t run away from the truth
I was nodding with a big ‘no’ expression on my face
She didn’t waste my time

I enjoyed every bit of it no doubt
Why couldn’t I, if it meant what I was listening now
I would have waited for years to hear this
She stopped and I could see a look on her

A look waiting for a reply from me
I admitted that I was having the same feelings
There is something between us which is
Still a mystery and there is no name for it

And I don’t know when it will unfold
Till we can only try to figure out
She said there are some mysteries not meant to unfold
They have to be accepted as it is

No one can find a reason or logic
Some encounters are not meant for coincidences
They are meant for something valuable
Something precious and they are once in a lifetime

Running away from those will only result in regrets
I will tell you what it meant really
I felt like I found my soulmate and so
The look and smile with satisfaction

Came spontaneously from core of my soul
That wasn’t a mere expression of feelings
That was a signal from my soul

I was overwhelmed with her words
Thought that she is so brave to accept it
And candid that she admitted it to me
She is a brave girl

Before I say anything, she interrupted
It is fine that you don’t feel the same way
Absolutely fine if you do not believe
In a concept of soulmate or no coincidences

But I do and you can tell me what you think
I can wait as long as you want
Take your time and tell me what you believe
I am strong enough to accept the truth

She was on the verge of leaving
But I didn’t want her to go
A voice inside my head was telling me
Stop her; I want to stay with you forever

I raised my hand up in an attempt to stop her
Someone held my hand and asked
Where are you, what’s going on?
For a moment, I didn’t realize what’s happening

It was my bro and I was in my bed
I was dreaming and this was the dream
I never wanted to end and the crazy fact,
The end of beautiful dreams is so traumatic


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